feel like talking but i dunno who to talk to . feel like writing down my feelings but i just dunno where to write them down. having finals tomorrow yet im still in this fcking mood. some memories stroke me in my mind and affected my mood. was lying on my bed and recalled some memories i used to own. i just dont understand, why all that happened.  i was once a girl who can fall for others easily. what's happening to me now? did i lost interest in guys? or should i just go for woman? (LOL). i hate how memories come back and leave once in a while. i feel like wiping off all the memories but i cant. i did a lot for him, and obviously, i got nothing in return. he's with a new girl now. seems to be really happy, idk. all i know is what i did wasn't paid off. i sacrificed for the wrong thing, wasted time for the wrong person. used to skip class for him, telling him that "oh, my class ended earlier" just to see him. now im thinking, "oh maggie you're such a fool". did that stupid video, used my whold day, just for that video, and what now? maybe he had already deleted the video. it's okay. made a bottle of notes for him, wishing him luck in STPM. what a fool am i. but i kept one of the notes and it's still with me now. " it's never easy to be with you". i kept it, for the sake of make sure he wont feel bad for what he did. im such a fool.

 maybe i just meant to be like since i was born. and i dont like myself seriously.
-the enamoured-

because of both of you, i found a better one. thanks to both of you :)

i never look back o , because i prefer my life now. no more tears. :)

toodle-oo. wish the both of you happy with ya new life now. hehehehehehehehehehehe

-the enamoured-

this blog is officially off.

-the enamoured-

R.I.P Ace

-the enamoured-

i hope 2011 will be better... pls.... after my grandpa died, my ex betrayed me, now, my puppy is in a critical condition.

ace just came to my house for few days... but soon we figured out he has an innate sickness... of course no cure... i thought ace would be a point tht turn my life to better one. but in the end, NO.

-the enamoured-

my first birthday present for today is maggie ng's and valerie's surprise :) they came to my house suddenly and made sushi's for me. i roughly know they will do it. but i dont know wat i thought of really happened! thanks to my two awesome pals ! :D

-the enamoured-

hmmm. few weeks ago... i fell for someone HEHE

-the enamoured-

IT'S ACE ♥

-the enamoured-

hmmmm.... want to dye my hair... but dunno which colour i should choose, brown is definitely a NO NO because brown hair doesn't blend with tanned skin at all!!!!!it looks awkward and old. moreover my hair is naturally brown already-.- hmmm.. maybe i should try dark PURPLE?

-the enamoured-

i went to see Ace today. omg he's a lovely babe! wait for me ya babe! i 'll bring you home soon :)

-the enamoured-

yesterday 7am i already know about alviss kong .earlier than many people do.i read his last note, and cried. really touching.

i never knew tht his case will be so popuplar now... maybe it's the power of facebook.

i saw many people scolded him in facebook... said he's stupid... yes, maybe he's stupid. but where can you find a guy like him now? leng zai somemore. who can understand his feeling? if he made this decision then just respect him. and he's dead now.y still wanna scold him?

i dont think he's stupid. maybe tht girl really meant something for him. really special for him. we cant deny tht, he's really a good man. just like romeo. we can just onli say he's not rational.

but at least, this shows tht he's ready to sacrifice for his love!

so... RIP alviss kong =)

-the enamoured-

omg.. love chow chow a lot!

haiz

more than one month ago.. grandfather passed away..3 weeks ago.. bf betrayed me.... then spm did many mistakes... looks like 2010 isn't a good year for me.
and soemeone committedsuicide...

i will never laugh at you... i know you weren't doing it without thinking, people might say you are stupid, but i dont think you are stupid....between , R.I.P
-the enamoured-

http://www.facebook.com/notes/alviss-kong/ni-de-wu-qing-gei-le-wo-wu-bi-de-que-xin-3-alviss-last-note/181668725179222

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原来天使也会累

两个人相爱偶尔会有争执,第一个转身道歉的人就是这断爱情里的天使。可是如果每一次都是天使转身，天使也会觉得累而离去。离去后，这断爱情里的恶魔很伤心也不明白为何天使离去。如果恶魔问我，我会答，：“为何你不转身呢？”

Ya

ya, I'm a hot chick(buahaha)

R.I.P

finally manage to have some time here.

we started to miss you. realised that you are not with us anymore. yeye, i remember the moment when we were arguing. i remember the moment when you were chasing me behind because i disturbed you. i remember the moment when you were bringing krystie and me to shop somewhere near by our house. and you would say, "sure is krystie made you to ask me to bring both of you go out"

yesterday kelly asked me whether she was dreaming, how come you left us suddenly. i said it didn't happen suddenly, it's actually predictable. your yeye suffered a lot.i brought meijin and kelly near your coffin, and told them to appreciate the time left to see you.

your hyper active grandson, ivan sudo completed the last chant obediently. so surprise! he would have touched this and that, running here and there normally.unfortunately, he did something tht made us laughed when we were praying. awww... he's just a 5 years old kid....forgive him=)

R.I.P yeye,

lastly, remember to follow amitaba

i love you=)

-the enamoured-

long time no update.

our school trial ended earlier so we are having holiday for the whole week=)

today went out to buy something.. while i was walking near jaykerr's house, three boys walked towards me.i was looking at them when they passed by me. suddenly, one of them said, "hey sexy wanna fuck?". i wasn't scared or what, just looked at him. hello? do you know how to respect girls? if i was a doctor, i would like to do something on your mouth. maybe a big zip for you. i have never seen such a rude child. hello? i think you are younger than me. students just came back from school with a big bag. people asked me, did i answer him?

dont do it guys. it would make them get high.

dont ever stare at them. they would get mad.

dont ever afraid of anything they do. just stay calm.

lastly, respect girls. girls dont dress sexy to let guys see. PLS DONT MISUNDERSTAND.

-the enamoured-

-the enamoured-